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To my spiderwoman.. Hey Tiger. Just wanted you to know that my love for you has not died. I've spent the past year and more trying to move beyond the hurt and pain we caused each other. Hours and hours reflecting on what we had and what we could have. I have dealt with the pain and the betrayal but I cannot stop the love. I can only dream of what might have been but I have to admit it pains me to see you with the wrong one. I unexpectedly came across some of the many pictures we took together and it still amazes me how much we just seem so right for one another. Instead, you are settling and I am choosing a life alone. While I have watched you bed many and settle for a boring life in return for a roof over your head, I have chosen to be alone. Never touched by another since that fateful day in August .I tried a few dates but every minute was spent longing for you. I realize it would not be fair to someone for me to "pretend" to love them. You were always better at that. It's just not me. Part of me envies the cold ousness of your heart. Your ability to just be with someone because they pay your bills. Just because you don't want to be alone. But then again I have to be authentic. I know reality is that we will never be again but I still have dreams of you walking down the aisle to join me for a lifetime. I cannot anyone else in that place. That seat is taken...if only in . When I put your name on my body I knew you would be the last. I also knew I would grow old and finish this life alone for you will never change. You will always be searching for something better. I could only dream that you'd realize I was the one. The one that loved you unconditionally. The one that saw "you" and your pain. I just couldn't stand the and the cheating. I know when one treats someone that way that there is absolutely no respect, and without respect there's no way to make it a lifetime. I dream every night that we will both awaken from this nightmare and find each other again. But in my heart I know it will never be. So...just know...that I still have only you in my heart. I long to love you ,honor you and dedicate the rest of my life to you. And in a way I am...just doing it alone. I love a woman I will never have. She doesn't exist. She's pretending to be happy in that shabby little house with the shabby little dyke. I'll never understand it....why you had to stray and play. I'll never understand how easily it was for you to attack and hate rather than admit your shortcomings. I'd have forgiven you for cheating. It was the denial and the loathing that you felt for me. The fact that you hated me for you out. That was so hurtful. We did so many hurtful things to each other when you know as well as i do that we belong together. Of course thats all in theory...for reality is a far different thing. I miss you. I don't miss the things you did but I miss the woman I love. Even if she is like a wounded animal. I guess you're content with your "Independence". I...will never be content. The woman I waited a lifetime for is still floundering and looking for something she will never find outside of herself. It's a shame she will never allow herself to look there. I love you T. I love you the most.

Friendship Leading to More, Move from PA to AZ in time m4w Hello, im a Christian Male living Currently in the Boyertown Area of Pa. Use to live in Prescott Arizona and Willcox Arizona. im a 's, Open minded understanding soul. I seek to find a woman age 45 to 65 who would like to someday move to Arizona or Texas. I love the weather, the American indian history which is Not just history out there btu still there among those living out there. Sunsets, sunrises, the weather, just to much to mention and I miss it much. Would anyone seek to become friends and get to know each other with the thought of moving to the West? Let me know for this is a most serious add. Thanks and take care, God bless you All. Dave

Let's Talk m4w Just looking for a woman to chat with from time to time, to share views and opinions. I enjoy a good discussion, limited on debating, but if we have a good topic I'm game. No pics needed, just want to talk, text or email. Put "let's chat" in your subject, Please!.